In the last few weeks, my family and I moved away from a place we loved with friends we adored and a ward that was fantastic to another great place where we have friends and family close by, and our new ward is also wonderful. Life is beautiful in both places, and I know I have been blessed. However, I have been feeling like I'm missing something.
As I pondered on what I've been missing, the answer became clear: I am missing my Heavenly Father. I am missing the relationship and connection I have had with Him in the past. I miss His love, His guidance, and His comfort. I know I have felt all of those things recently, and I'm not breaking commandments or trying to stray from those things, but I think I have been too distracted to recognize them. With the start of my new Etsy business, See Nikki Create, our move out of state, two sick babies, and a million of life's stresses that have piled up, I have unintentionally distanced myself from my Father.
That happens sometimes, doesn't it? We get so busy trying to live our lives that we forget to counsel with the one who KNOWS our lives. We read our scriptures, but only read a few verses right before we go to bed; we say our prayers, but we are half asleep; we go to church, but we are distracted by our children or our to-do lists and we miss the spiritual lessons; we try so hard to do everything we can as mothers and wives (crafts, perfect meals, gorgeous home decorations, play dates, intimacy, etc.) that we forget the important fact that our families need God more than anything.
Luckily, Heavenly Father knows our hearts and knows that we are trying our best. He will accept us back unconditionally with loving arms, whenever we turn back to Him and make Him our priority. As Elder Uchtdorf explained in his talk The Hope of God's Light from the April 2013 General Conference, "As we draw near to God, He will draw near to us."
I need to draw nearer to God every day. Here are my goals to accomplish this:
1. Get on my knees every morning to thank Him for my life and blessings.
2. Pray with my children when they wake up.
3. Spend a consistent amount of time every day doing gospel studies.
4. Pray for His approval on my priority list, and when I get His approval, stick to it.
5. Put my family, church service, and my spiritual growth before any other matters.
I hope that as I do this the next few days, I will be able to feel God drawing nearer to me. I know He will, because He has promised each of us that blessing.
How are you going to draw nearer to God this week?